DAY 16 | MONDAY, JUNE 20
After a little hiatus to deal with life ups and downs and creativity blockages, I’m back! I’ve already blogged more than I though I would in an entire year, so that’s a win. It may not be the 30 consecutive days that I had originally planned for, but I’ve said it before but it’s my challenge so I can do what I want. Ha!
A FAMILIAR PATH
When life throws a curveball I tend to move away from talking about it, online or otherwise. The key lesson, so I’m learning, is that these are the times I probably need to lean into it more than ever. To use this as an outlet to sort through the fire storm of emotions that are going on.
Traditionally I retreat. I like to sort through things on my own. I don’t like to ask for help. I panic. I spiral. I cry. I get fed up, then I start to hustle.
WELL PLAYED UNIVERSE, WELL PLAYED
Life is testing me right now. I put a plan in motion almost two years ago, just when I’m rounding third base the universe starts to shake things up. It’s throwing obstacles at me, and presenting me with new opportunities. With my goal within arms reach, life is really starting to test my limits.
And if I’m being honest, it’s testing my two biggest vices – control and patience.
GIVING MYSELF SPACE
A friend of mine gave me some great advice last week. He told me I’m never going to find the answers I’m looking for if I’m trying to forge through to the ‘right’ answer. That I needed to give myself space, space to breathe. To let ideas and potential grow. This really stuck with me. It’s also really hard for a control freak like me who wants everything to happen right NOW.
Another friend put it more succinctly when she told me that I needed to calm the fuck down, haha.
FROM WHERE I STAND
So here I stand, at a major crossroads in my life. A blank canvas in front of me, lots of lessons behind me and an opportunity to go after what I’ve wanted for so long.
I have more questions than answers and I am learning to be ok with that. Do I do what’s comfortable, what’s conventional or do I leap?